Chapter 26, page 138 aka April 7, 2025.
A lot has happened since I last wrote a post on here, sans my little re-introduction. My mental health took a hit several times in the last 3 years; I ended up swinging from depressed to manic more than once. I gained weight and lost it again, but I was disordered in my eating on both ends of the spectrum. I am, however, doing a lot better than I was and am healthier than before.
On top of the chaos, good things did happen too, like me graduating from nursing school summa cum laude, me finding who I consider to be the love of my life, and now buying a house to move in with him. I also have a stable job and a solid support system, both of which I am extremely grateful for.
Though I’ve had ups and downs, I think my mental health is in a really good place, probably the best it’s been in years. I’m not using as many unhealthy coping mechanisms anymore and my partner is helping me to recognize when I may be elevated, which keeps me from going manic. I’ve started to move my body more and officially began training for my first 5k, which sounds silly, but as someone who hasn’t really run before and never really liked it, I’m proud of the little milestones. Right now I’m able to run 2 miles, which is HUGE for me. By the end of the year, I hope to run a half marathon and maybe even a full marathon. It really depends on how my body feels, which is another thing I’m working to become better at deciphering. I’ve always been bad at knowing which emotions I’m feeling and even physical sensations, but I’m working at becoming better at that through mindfulness.
Overall, the point of this post is that I’m working at living a meaningful life full of health and muchness. I want to prove that it can get better. I also want to share my journey and educate along the way. I’ve come a long way from 3 years ago and an even longer way from 5 years ago, when I hit my first rock bottom. Overall, I’m happy to be here and be present and in the moment.
Made to Bloom 